Time changes many............

There was a time when Jan 20 was a very important date, a very special date in my life.
It was 'her' birthday - the girl I ONCE loved deeply and madly.

This was long, long time back. I remember planning for her birthday - surprising her with small yet sweet gifts. I remember, once 'She' was away to Maharashtra for work on her birthday. I actually celebrated her birthday alone by quietly cutting a small cake at midnight. Innocent and pure love....it was beautiful.
Unfortunately things did not work out between us. She dumped me for another guy and it left me heartbroken and shattered. It took me a very long time to get over him. I remember sending her gifts, flowers, wishes on her birthday even when were not on talking terms. For years, I visited dargaah on her birthday and prayed for her success and happiness and hoping things would get better someday. Unfortunately, they didn't. I was left with bitter feelings. Yet deep down I wished her well.

I took a very, very long time but I moved on.

We never interacted. Common friends told me 'she' married the guy and was doing extremely well in her career. I also heard that she hurt a lot of old friends. she cheated them for money, betrayed people to move ahead in her career. I was upset to hear this.

Then last year, I heard from a friend that 'she' was going through a very bad phase. she was badly hit by the slowdown. she was jobless and was under debt. Strangely, I didn't feel sorry for her. I know that I'll sound ruthless, heartless and may be evil but I was happy and relieved to hear that she was in pain. I was surprised how time had changed my feelings for her.


This morning, on my way to work I checked the calendar. It took me more than 2 minutes to realise it was her birthday. In fact, I was initially confused if it was on Jan 20 or Jan 23. Surprised??? So was I.

I know that she is in deep pain and is still struggling for work. I feel sorry for her.
Times have changed. Feelings have changed. I have changed. Today, I feel nothing for her. Neither love nor hatred. What has not changed is - my yearly sms which carries my best wishes on her birthday. But she never replies.

I have finally forgiven her. I realised this when I sent her a SMS this morning wishing her well.

Guess what??? she replied to my message today. she thanked me and blessed me. I was pleasantly surprised.


I'm sure, time taught her some important lessons about life including - what goes around, comes around.