क्या ख़ास है उसके ख़तों में?

लोग पूछते हैं हम से कि पुराने ख़तों में ऐसा क्या है जो बार- बार पढ़ते  हो?

कैसे समझाए उन्हें कि कितनी यादें बसी हैं उन ख़तों में...
यादों के साथ बसी है...

ढेर सारी हंसी,
कई शरारतें,
कितने मज़ाक,
ढेर सारी बातें,
कुछ मासूम उमीदें,
कई खूबसूरत ख़्वाब,
कुछ झगड़े,
थोड़ी शिकायतें,
गहरा होता प्यार,
और प्यार का इज़हार,
थोड़ा रूठना,
थोडा मनाना,
कई मिन्नतें,
थोड़ी सी तड़प,
और थोड़े से आंसू,
कुछ गलत्फैमियां,
थोड़ी नादानियाँ,
और बेपनाह प्यार
बहुत से खूबसूरत पल,
बसे हैं इन्ह ख़तों में,
वोह हर एक पल,
जो मैंने गुज़ारा उनके साथ,
उन्ह ख़तों में
और वोह हर पल
जो गुज़ारा ख़्वाबों में,
उन पल,
उन यादों,
उन ख़्वाबों के सहारे ख़ुशी से कट रही है ज़िन्दगी
शुक्र है कि चाहे थोड़ी हि सही,
पर कुछ तो पल, कुछ तो ख़्वाब खुदा ने लिखे थे हमारे उनके साथ :)

Have I stopped enjoying life?

Where have all the simple joys of life gone?
Have we just forgotten to enjoy the small pleasures?
in everything while running behind fulfilling bigger dreams?
Why don’t we enjoy the drops of rain falling on our face instead of shielding it with an umbrella?
Why can’t we find time to stop and enjoy the smell of a flower on a bush by the side of the road?
Are there any bushes left by the side of the road in this jungle of concrete buildings?
Why do we talk to everyone else on the phone for hours but can’t spare even 5 minutes for family?
Why do we talk to our own siblings through messages in spite of living under the same roof?
Why can’t we smile at strangers on the street?
Why are we so frustrated all the time?
Why do we keep ourselves occupied? To run away from the worries in life?
But then why do we look at our worries as problems? Why don’t we look at them as challenges?
Why can’t we appreciate and enjoy the colours thrown in the sky by the rising sun?
Why can’t we sing our hearts out in public instead of acting ‘sophisticated’?
What is the definition of sophistication and why is it often just all about concealing your real feelings and emotions?
Why can’t there be a single moment when we can be ourselves?
Why can’t we laugh our hearts out when our happiness knows no bounds and cry like a baby when we are very badly hurt?

All these questions and many more keep popping in my mind and I keep wondering every day…why? Why are things the way they are? Why have we stopped living life in the true sense of it? And why have we stopped enjoying it? I remember having enjoyed small moments in life as a child. But now, I have myself entered this fake world while trying to keep up with others. Am I running away from my true self then? Or have I just changed as a person, over the years? Do I still feel like hopping around when I am happy? Yes, I do. Then why is it that I don’t do it? Why does a smile still curl up on my face with the first rain? Is it true that a baby continues to live in every grown up? May be it is. Then where has the baby in me gone? May be like everyone else, even I have locked it in a small room in the corner of my heart.

Now all that matters is my career and a nice job and money. This is all I desire for. But what about my desire to let myself free? In this race to win in life, I have stopped enjoying life.

Khud se hi darr raha hai woh aane wala kal

Khud se hi darr raha hai woh aane wala kal,
Ki guzari naummidi ke kisse tum yoon sunaate ho.

Duniya se to keh aaye tum ki zakhm hai halka,
Kyon dete ho dilaasa, kyon dil ko fir samjhaate ho.

Seedhi baat keh doon to rooth jaate hain mujhse,
Fir ilzaam bhi mujh par hi hai ki baatein kyon uljhaate ho.

Hosh apnaa tum kisi ke naam kar aaye,
Ab naam bhi apnaa, ainaa dekh kar batlaate ho.

BUSY BUSY..!!

Wow.!!Days are just flying by now without any time to make some updates on "my blog". I have my excuses for being so preoccupied..Since I’ve been so busy at office.i promise i will blog at least once a week now.!!! i guess that is for now.. i m really running out of stuff to write... but i will come back soon...

Boring Voicemail

I hate voicemails. In fact, I am not even comfortable leaving a voice message.
Most of the time I hang up once I realise that the phone is on voicemail. I would leave a voice message only in a very critical situation. When I leave a voice message, I am not able to say what I wanted to say. I fumble, murmur and then hang up.

Has this ever happened to you ? When you really wanted to talk to someone but his or her phone is on voicemail. You know that exchanging emails, SMSing or chatting on Google won't help because you REALLY want to talk to that person.

I know that I can always call back later and talk to my friend. But sometimes you just want to talk at that time, that moment...ussi waqt...because you have something important to say or tell which might lose its value later.

Suppose, it is an important day... special day for the person and you wanted to be the first person to wish the person but his or her damn phone is on voicemail. Ugh!!!
When you wish someone in person or over the phone it is different. You feel every word that comes out of your mouth - Wishes come out straight from the heart because you know the person is listening to you. And how do you that when you know that a machine is listening to it and recording it. At least, I can't do that. :(

Khair koi baat nahi...

Beacuse my wishes and prayers for the person are actually between God and me.
I shared them with God while having my daily conversation with ma friend. And I'm sure God will grant them and bless the person! :)
Aameen!

have a nice weekend :)

09 Things that made me HAPPY in year 2009

1. Ma Pa's 36th wedding anniversary.
2. Buying my blackberry and car.
3. My brother got,what he deserves.
4. Traveling & exploring.
5. Completing 6 yrs in Mumbai.
6. Being a part of best organization
7. Having Bhabhi & a kid over with me for a vacation.
8. Re-connecting with God.
9. http://aamiralired.blogspot.com - my blog

May 2010 give us many more reasons to be happy...happier :)))

:)))))
Life is beautiful :)

Time changes many............

There was a time when Jan 20 was a very important date, a very special date in my life.
It was 'her' birthday - the girl I ONCE loved deeply and madly.

This was long, long time back. I remember planning for her birthday - surprising her with small yet sweet gifts. I remember, once 'She' was away to Maharashtra for work on her birthday. I actually celebrated her birthday alone by quietly cutting a small cake at midnight. Innocent and pure love....it was beautiful.
Unfortunately things did not work out between us. She dumped me for another guy and it left me heartbroken and shattered. It took me a very long time to get over him. I remember sending her gifts, flowers, wishes on her birthday even when were not on talking terms. For years, I visited dargaah on her birthday and prayed for her success and happiness and hoping things would get better someday. Unfortunately, they didn't. I was left with bitter feelings. Yet deep down I wished her well.

I took a very, very long time but I moved on.

We never interacted. Common friends told me 'she' married the guy and was doing extremely well in her career. I also heard that she hurt a lot of old friends. she cheated them for money, betrayed people to move ahead in her career. I was upset to hear this.

Then last year, I heard from a friend that 'she' was going through a very bad phase. she was badly hit by the slowdown. she was jobless and was under debt. Strangely, I didn't feel sorry for her. I know that I'll sound ruthless, heartless and may be evil but I was happy and relieved to hear that she was in pain. I was surprised how time had changed my feelings for her.


This morning, on my way to work I checked the calendar. It took me more than 2 minutes to realise it was her birthday. In fact, I was initially confused if it was on Jan 20 or Jan 23. Surprised??? So was I.

I know that she is in deep pain and is still struggling for work. I feel sorry for her.
Times have changed. Feelings have changed. I have changed. Today, I feel nothing for her. Neither love nor hatred. What has not changed is - my yearly sms which carries my best wishes on her birthday. But she never replies.

I have finally forgiven her. I realised this when I sent her a SMS this morning wishing her well.

Guess what??? she replied to my message today. she thanked me and blessed me. I was pleasantly surprised.


I'm sure, time taught her some important lessons about life including - what goes around, comes around.

Painkiller for heart ache ???

Is there a painkiller for heartache?
Some medicine, some drug that can reduce one's heartache...take away the pain, the killing pain?
Pain which so unbearable and killing.

When you know that nothing in this world will help.

All you need is a BIG HUG from one person whose presence and absence makes all the difference but the person is not there...
and then you start looking for that ONE painkiller which can reduce your heartache.

It is killing me.

Mumbai Lovers Point

My friend emailed me this shyri

Ek to Manzile bhi uski thi, Rasta bhi uska thaa,Ek main akela tha, Kafila bhi uska thaa..
Sath-Sath chalne ki soch bhi uski thi, Phir raasta badalne ka faisla bhi uska thaa...
Aaj kyon akela hoon, Dil sawal karta hai, log to uske they, Kya KHUDA bhi uska thaaa....?

तेरे इंतज़ार से

खुद को खुश करने लिए, हम ने दिल को समझा दिया
आज हमने तेरे नाम से, खुद को एक ख़त लिख दिया

The Countdown begins

Ten days from today- on Jan 26, 2010, I will complete six years - a real time - in Mumbai.
Where did the last 6 years go?

My first day in Mumbai is still fresh in my mind :)Time really flies!!! sigh!

The next few posts on Aamir A will be dedicated to this last six years of my life!
I'll be walking down the memory lane, flipping back a few pages... few chapters of my life!

                                                       so keep glancing!!

:)

Bounce back :)

This morning, I was shocked to see myself in the mirror.I looked terribly sick..almost dead, ugly and old.
as I am feeling pain in ma back,so I decided to cheer myself a little.
I can't afford to be sad..at least today.What's so special about today? umm..you'll get to know in my next post,after shower -----------

Slipped into my fav basic blue jeans,Just ran my fingers through my hair ..then came in my confidence booster....my sun glass I applied.
I looked at myself in the mirror and smiled.
'Muaaah...I love you, handsome" I told myself with a smile, picked my bag and rushed to office,reached there @ sharp 8 am :))

As I walked down the stairs, I told myself -
"I cannot let myself be sad for long. Why must I feel sad and lonely?
I love myself and approve of myself.
I am a happy soul. I always get what I want. I will get what I want.
God loves me. My family loves me. My friends love me. They will never leave me.
I trust God. I trust my family and friends. I trust my love. And I trust myself.
My heart is full of love ...umm... over-flowing with love and I want to pour it...share it.
God is with me. He knows what I want, need and deserve and he will give it to me.
He will. I trust him."

:)
:)
:)

Learn a Bit........Laugh a Bit-There are many such monkeys around us, try to identify them

Someone emailed this really interesting short story to me this evening.I want to share it with you.

Ek din ek Kutta jungle main raasta kho gaya.

Tabhi usane dekha ek Sher uskii taraf aa raha hai.
Kutte ki saans rookh gayi. "Aaj to kaam tamaam mera!" usne socha.
Phir usne saamane kuchh sookhi haddiyan padi dekhi. Woh aate hue Sher ki
taraf peeth kar ke baith gaya aur ek sookhi hadii ko choosne laga aur zor
zor se bolne laga, "wah! Sher ko khaane ka mazaa hi kuch aur hai. Ek aur
mil jaaye to poori daawat ho jayegi !"
Aur usne zor se dakaar mari. Is bar Sher soch mein pad gayaa.
Usne socha "ye kutta to sher ka shikar karta hai! Jaan bacha kar bhago!"
Aur sher wahan se jaan bachaa ke bhag gaya.
Ped par baitha ek Bandar yeh sab tamasha dekh raha tha. Usne socha yeh
mauka achha hai sher ko saari kahani bata deta hoon.
Fir Sher se dosti bhi ho jayegi aur usse zindagi bhar ke liye jaan ka
khatra dur ho jayega..
Woh phataphat sher ke pichhe bhaaga. Kutte ne Bandar ko jaate hue dekh liya
aur samajh gayaki koi locha hai.
Udhar Bandar ne sher ko sab bata diya ki kaise kutte ne use bewakoof banaya
hai. Sher zor se dahada, "chal mere saath abhi uski leela khatam karta
hoon" aur Bandar ko apani peeth par baitha kar sher kutte ki taraf lapka.

Can u imagine the quick management by the DOG?
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Kutte ne sher ko aate dekha to ek baar phir uskii taraf peeth karke baith
gaya aur zor zor se bolne laga, "Is Bandar ko bheje huye 1 ghanta ho gaya,
Saala ek Sher bhi nahin pataa kar la sakta!"

Ha ha ha ha ha

Moral of the story:

There are many such monkeys around us, try to identify them.

Why BLOG ?

   when the style of the blogs started... or i mite say... the trend of the blogs... i usually used to wonder... what is that the one thing that peole find so amusing of writing and keeping it to a constrained number of people... and what sense does it make to write your own thoughts varying from the tiniest little thing to the most controversial opininons of self...

I have read ma friends blog ranging from personal experiences that are from day to day life like mine... and then some of the blogs of normal looking people having extra ordinary... issues...and views of their own... which conflict with the biggest most influential people and media around... and then there are some where...actually words flow from their heart or mind...
and there are some sort of writers hiding in the closet..trying to make it in this cruel world of competition...and then there are some like me... who just for the sake of it...come here to express osmething which they usually do not do...and yet want to share it with some audience....

now here i mite say... that i for a regular person... feel good to write stuff out of my mind...and get heard to certain people...matering to nothing else.... but a phone call later to discuss this the same.... but then... it feels really good...

some feel..... that they actually make a difference to the society.... and that they are contributing to bigger picture called Idea called India....and then there are some who try to gain attention form this little media.... and get the zeal of Attention.. and then be happy of all the attention that they got cos... thats all they get.... for the lifetime

but then....actually speaking.... Why a blog....????

why not some other media.... hmmm ...???

when i gave it a thought... media's available are those like TV, newspaper, journals... magaznes.. fm radio... and may be a website... but then... trying to get coverage... anywhere here..needs some or the other funds to start... and in the end you may or may not get success.... of actually putting your stuff out there....

but BLOG... the easiest most way... makes you look cool.... and then you have your own space... needs no funding..no management issue... no NOTHNG...

its the WAY to get noticed... and heard.... WHAT SAY????

hmm... so here im... an innocent person trying to get heard.... and a BLOGGER for a very tiny reason....

but yeah... i have my space and my opinions... and then i have certain....people to back too... so WAY to go....and ALL THUMBS UP for the blogs all around.... and to all BLOGGERS.... . keep Blogging.... :)

                                

                                 Cya  for now,will write more someother time!

Difficult People---------Read this somewhere on the net

"Difficult people are very important - they teach you tolerance and acceptance. If all was going your way all the time, you would become a spoiled child. Difficult people are just one of the ways God teaches us to expand beyond our egos and accept other perspectives on life."

                                                       I can't agree more!

Mere Sapnon se bhare NAINA

One of the things that I am looking forward to in 2010 is....making a big move in my profession :))
Umm..don't confuse this with some huge jump in the corp ladder.
 NO, sweeties. I am very much out of the rat race.
 I'm looking for a drastic change in my career and I hope in happens by the end of 2010.
 Enough of what I've done for all these years.
Wanna thank God and my family for helping me fulfill my small dreams..to achieve whatever I've achieved so far.
             But it is time to do something else now...umm...something 'different' :)
It's time to think, plan and.... 'action'....umm in short make it HAPPEN.

God,please be with me.

Happy days are here again

I just realised that I'm happy again! Kinda lost it for a bit, but it's back in full force! And it makes me so happy! I'm back in that mood again... where all I want to do is dance and sing the entire day and just spend some nonsensical hours with my friends, doing absolutely nothing!

And then I was like wondering, how the hell did all the moodiness go? I was worried I was actually going to start losing friends, I was that bad. And there's only that much, before people start realising you're just being a big fat fake! So anyway, I got the answer to my question pretty quick. No it wasn't like a light bulb going off, nor was it like that sudden flash of lightening! It was more like 'Elementary, my dear friends!'

I realised that since I left singapore (however fun it was and how much ever I loved going to office everyday... for more reason than one :P) I've just been sane. I haven't blown my top off, I haven't yelled the hell out of anyone, or got any of my 'tension and stress' headaches/ stomach aches. All along, when I was out there achieving something, all I really needed to be doing was resting! And behaving like the normal 28 year old I (think?) I am, who spent the entire day with his friends and partied every night!

All that hard work and for what? The simple realisation that I need to slow down, spend some time chilling and basically enjoy life!! And to think, I knew that all along anyway. But I guess that's why they say 'everything happens for a reason' in the first place.

And for my happy mood, I hope it lasts :)

I've missed it too much!!

I can motivate people

Not really -- they have to motivate themselves. You can't motivate people anymore than you can empower them. Employees have to motivate and empower themselves.I can motivate only myself. If I have to motivate my people to deliver result then perhaps they are in wrong job.

Having said that, an environment, however, can be set up where they best motivate and empower themselves. The key is knowing how to set up the environment for your people. Essentially you can be enablers for others to be motivated [self].

I am exploring the ways to do so for my team. Obviously organizational level parameters like money, career growth and skill development, recognition etc are already in place. What I am looking for is team level local enablers.

But I am toooooooooobuzy!!!

Ye Raat Ye Chandani Phir Kahan......Sunja Dil ki Daastan.

How many 15yr olds of today have heard- "suhaana safar aur ye mausam haseen" or "mudmud ke na dekh mudmud ke" or "zindagi khwaab hai, khwaab mein jhoot kya, aur bhala sach hai kya"

There will be a day, when these songs will die & the credit goes to......Radio stations & Parents

I give full credit to my parents. They used to listen to lots of 50s, 60s, 70s in their leisure time. My dad's LP player used to rock. No DVD or CD can match the sound of a LP disc.
Ye gane kahan milenge :)

leme see what can do????