What about me?

...and I am wondering what about my (unfulfilled) wishes, needs & dreams?

 Just because I have stopped expressing my feelings & needs...does that mean they don't exist?

Just because I shoved my crushed feelings & desires, my shattered dreams, my needs - deep in my heart does that mean that my heart has turned into a stone?

Just because I am trying to brave life and accept the reality does that mean I don't feel the pain anymore?

Just because I have stopped asking God for anything does that mean that I don't have any needs, wishes & prayers?
  
and why the hell am I thinking about all this now?  Why am I getting distracted by emotions?.. my emotional needs when I decided to lock them up and push them in a corner?