Pankaj Chauhaan

Saari umr hum office mein mar gaye Ek pal to ab humein jeene do jeene do Give me some flight Give me some train Give me another chance I wanna go home once again Kandhon ko laptop Ke bojh ne jhukaya Client se jhoot bolna tho khud Manager ne sikhaya 4.5 ya 5 rating laaoge to chhuti, varna kismat futi Kaam kar kar ke pada Ungaliyon pe REVIEW, SCREEN aur REWORK ka chaala Is Project ne to sala poora.. Poora bheja pakka daala Career to gaya GF bhi gayi Ek pal to ab humein jeene do jeene do Saari umr hum office main jee liye Ek pal to ab humein jeene do jeene do Give me some flight Give me some train Give me another chance I wanna go home once again.

What about me?

...and I am wondering what about my (unfulfilled) wishes, needs & dreams?

 Just because I have stopped expressing my feelings & needs...does that mean they don't exist?

Just because I shoved my crushed feelings & desires, my shattered dreams, my needs - deep in my heart does that mean that my heart has turned into a stone?

Just because I am trying to brave life and accept the reality does that mean I don't feel the pain anymore?

Just because I have stopped asking God for anything does that mean that I don't have any needs, wishes & prayers?
  
and why the hell am I thinking about all this now?  Why am I getting distracted by emotions?.. my emotional needs when I decided to lock them up and push them in a corner?

Going with the flow...

I am going with the flow.

I believe that there are no co-incidences. There is a reason why we meet people, why we part, why things happen. Everything is planned by that one supreme power up there. 

God has been dropping hints to make me believe that I am on the right track and that he has some awesome plans for me.  I am keeping the faith and just going with the flow.

Ameeen :)

Khi khi khi...

Locked in my heart and cyberspace are lots of beautiful & funfilled moments and memories.Reading old emails, going through old chat conversation can been so comforting.Laughing out loudly while reading stupid, mindless and funny conversations.They instantly lift my mood and make me super happy.Read an old chat message. The chat conversation just transported me to those good times and  I started laughing. Suddenly, I realised I was too loud and it was late in the night so controlled my laughter.

khi khi khi

...hehheheh...still laughing  :))))

Bottled up!

I really want to write but I am not able to.I have so much to say because there is so much happening in and around my life. There are so many things running inside me - thoughts & emotions but I am unable to get them out.